PreciousMetalShipping: Miles away (engl.)
„You know, I really hate you…“, the boy said. The other boy raised his head and looked in his face
“I know.”, he replied and continued to kiss his neck.
The red haired boy shivered. “Yeah…”, he mumbled, but he didn’t try to reject the black haired boy whose mouth was now wandering down to his shoulders, kissing them gently.
“And why exactly do you hate me now?”, the black haired boy asked, putting much effort in accenting the word “now”. He had stopped kissing the boy that sat in front of him and now looked up into his eyes.
“…Cause you make me feel so good…”, the red haired boy answered the question and then blushed out of embarrassment. He turned his face away, trying not the meet the other boys gaze.
“Aha… and what’s BAD about feeling GOOD?”
“It’s just… it’s not normal, don’t you think so?” The red haired boy brought himself to look back at the black haired and let his hands run through his hair. With his cold, silver eyes he was staring at his golden ones, but he felt kind of unsure when he looked in those. Was it wrong or was it right to be with him? To be `in love´ with him? He wasn’t sure about it.
“What do ya mean?”, the other boy mumbled, and he didn’t manage to hide this nervousness.
“Well…”, the red haired boy said, sighing, and running his hand trough his own hair, “Just look at us. We…”
“We were something like rivals, some time ago. Yeah. But what’s the deal?”
“No!”, the boy with the silver eyes said harshly and sighed again. “Maybe you didn’t realize it until now, but we are both guys!”, he continued with more than just sarcasm in his voice.
“Ooooh, that… Thanks for telling me. I didn’t know it…” Then the boy with the golden eyes laughed. “No, really. I don’t care…”
“Yeah, yeah… why did I even though for a minute that someone like YOU would care about that…?” He chuntered and closed his eyes. “It’s just… that I feel like… like there are so many miles between us…”
“What…?”
“You’re sitting here in front of me and if I raise my hand, I can… I can even touch your face, but…”
“So… what’s the matter?”
“You’re really not the clever one, you know!”
“I know, I know. That’s why I’m asking!” The black haired boy smirked and glared at his friend and lover with a accusing glance.
The red haired boy paused for an awkward moment, then he considered how to explain what he meant.
“Well… there’s Onee-chan, and there’s Crys, too. And so many other girls. So… why did I have to fall in love with you? With a boy?!”
“Eh? What’s this about? Why are you changing the subj-?”
“And then I was thinking about… what the others might think if they knew. What Onee-chan would say…”
“Please, I really don’t know what you’re on to...?!”
“Don’t you see that there’s a great abyss between us? A huge mountain? Or maybe just too many miles…?”
“…Silver…” The black haired boy looked kind of sad, even if he didn’t knew what Silver meant exactly. “Silver, no matter what… We’ll manage everything, as long as we are…”
“I don’t think so. Not like this. Not this way. We can’t hide it all the time. It’s no good.” Silver was desperate, and the other boy could see in his sad, silvery eyes that he was suffering. That’s why he lifted his arms and pulled them around his friend.
“Silver… I don’t know why you are always worrying about the estimation of the others! It’s US that counts, isn’t it? And don’t look at me this way, I know you are!”, he continued, patting the red haired boys back.
“…Maybe you are right…”, Silver sighed and closed his eyes again. He wasn’t convinced, after all, and he wasn’t sure who was right – he or his lover –, but he didn’t want to go further with his thoughts, which were full of doubts, and also desire.
“And because I make you feel good, you were doubting that our relationship is the right thing? …I don’t get it…”, the black haired boy mumbled and kissed Silvers left ear.
The other boy shivered for a moment, than he forced himself to smile. “Something like that…”, he answered, “But it’s also the fact that there are miles between us, Gold, that makes me… doubting…”
“I know. You’ve already told me this.”, Gold said, sighing, and continued caressing Silvers ear.
The red haired boy shivered again when he felt Gold’s kisses on his skin, but he just gulped to get rid of those strange feelings he just felt right now.
“There are… miles… between us.”
“Even if I don’t get what you mean by this… maybe I should just start running right now so that I can be by your side as soon as possible.” Gold had stopped caressing his unofficial boyfriend once again, and now he pulled him away, gently. And he looked deeply in his silvery eyes. “I’d do everything to be with you, you know?!”
Silver smiled softly, not knowing what to answer to this confession. “Yeah… you probably would…”, he mumbled as if it was canon, but then he continued: “You would?”
“Hell yeah, I would!”
“...Thank you.” Silver couldn’t stop smiling at Gold, and they both knew that this smile was a true, a honest, a happy smile – it was not faked, like it usually was when Silver smiled.
“I guess I’d do the same.”, Silver said after a few seconds of silence, and then he leaned forwards and kissed his lover gently on his cheeks. The tender cheeks of Gold were flushing in a bright red for a moment, then Silver felt that he was blushing too (he wasn’t sure if it was healthy to blush that often in such a short time). It was the first time that he was kissing Gold, and he had just realized this…
“I guess I have never even left your side.”, Gold said with a promising voice and held Silvers face between his palms. He slid his index finger under Silvers chin and raised his blushed face then. “…I really love you, Silver.”
“What?!” The boy with the red hair (and face, too) was completely speechless, but that could have also been caused by the kiss with which Gold was sealing his promise he had made with the last words. Silver knew that, too… He knew that Gold didn’t just mean “I love you”, he also meant that he would stay with him, perhaps for all time. Silver hoped it would be like this, but at the other hand he knew that everything was meant to have an end someday…
“I… me too…”, he stuttered and turned his head away, because he didn’t want to show his embarrassed countenance to his confident lover.
“Wow. It’s the first time you said this.”, Gold realized and couldn’t help but grin, “The other times you have just said something like…” He harrumphed and tried to imitate Silver: “`And I just hate you for saying this´. Blabla…”
Silver blushed again and coughed out of embarrassment. “Yeah, yeah, maybe… But I though you knew what I meant…”
“I knew it… or at least I know it now.”, Gold answered, referring to the conversation they had a few minutes ago. “You love me, but you’re just too shy to show it, right?”
“What?! That’s not what I said-!”
“Yeah, yeah…” Gold laughed kind of amused at Silvers blushing face. He knew this situation was really awkward for him, but he enjoyed teasing his lover a bit. It had always been fun to do so, even when they hadn’t been in love, long time ago.
“So… what should we do now?”
“Eh?” Now it was Gold whose face was turning red because of this unexpected question. “Wha-wha-what do you mean… we should do…?”
“No, I was talking about… what we should tell the others! What did YOU just think?!”
“Oh, nothing, really…”, Gold mumbled and scratched his nose nervously.
“Of course…”, Silver chuntered, “So… should we tell them or not?”
“Do you want to hide our relationship till the very end?”, he answered the question with another one. Silver understood, and nodded.
“So… we’ll better tell them… very soon.”
“Yeah, yeah…”, Gold said nervously, “I’m glad this topic is finished. How about doing something different now?”
“Wha-wha-what do you mean with `something different´?” Now it was Silver who was stuttering.
“I don’t know. Maybe you know.”, Gold said, grinning devilish. Silver gulped.
“Well… maybe I know…” He shrugged, and then pulled his arms around Gold, caressing his neck like Gold did before.
Now it was Gold who was shivering because of the unexpected movements of Silver. But then he smiled, satisfied. “Yeah, that’s exactly what I meant.”
“You little pervert…”, Silver mumbled when his mouth was close to Gold’s ear, but he smiled amused.
“I know.” Gold giggled for a moment, then it was his turn to kiss Silvers cold skin.
“Dear… your skin is always so cold… just like… you were really a bullion of silver…”
“Hm… maybe you are the gold-treasure then…”, Silver added amused.
“Hah, then we’re both precious metals, aren’t we?”
“Maybe…?”, Silver said, grinning, “And you’ll always be precious for me…” `…I hope…´, he added in his thoughts, but he remained silent ‘cause he didn’t want to ruin this sweet moment they were sharing.
“Thank you.”
Silver was really surprised that Gold stayed so calm and serious after this declaration.
“You’re welcome… always…”, he replied and sealed his words with a kiss.
Even if his mind had been full of doubts some time ago… Right now he was sure that Gold was the right one… He could just hope that he would think like this forever…
“And even if there might be miles between us some times… I’ll always run to you and stay by your side…”
