beginning of a nightmare
Dark clouds runnung through the dark sky. Everything was still,just the noise of his breath,the strong and frighten heart beats make him sure that he is not dreaming.
And he wanted to dream...dream....be far away,in a world he doesn't has to be afraid of. So he was there in his room with no lights on, just the bright moon shining at him,laying in his bed.
Ryou stares in to the darkness thinking of his fate and family tragedy.
His eyes fills up with tears running down his cheeks.
The young boy grabbs his breast.// alone.....I'm alone by myself......I hate it...what do I want?-- I think I want someone around me.
And later?
Someone who hugs me......
what for?
...I need it
what for?
.....don't getting depressed?
Am I depressed?
...maybe.....I'm scared
What of?
being alone until the end.//
He turns around pressing his face into the pillow starting to cry. Noboby hearing it,noboby hugging him...helping him.....well that's not exactly true.
*dumb little kid..you are going an my nerves*
Ryou shrug and was looking around his room searching for the way the voice came from,starting to shake.
/sorry...I'm ..just so lonely..aren't you lonely as well?You were a human being like me ...weren't you?/
Ryou looks at his millenium item, garbs it and puts it on his stomach.Then he leans back,satring at the wall again.
*Sure I was! What do you think am I? A fucking Jinn of a lamp?.....would you finaly stopp making yourself depressed?!! ....you are sick! I wish I would have got another Hikari..you sucks!*
Looking sad not moving.
/sorry.....but I'm not as cold hearted as you are...I need other people..people who give me love,attention and support...I ahte to be lonely/
* You little crap. You were always lonely. You miss your mother and little sister.Accept it!!! They are dead! you will never see them again! Never! When will you get it? and you need support? Love?.HA! Don't make me laugh! Look around you...nobody care about you,nobody is there for you. Do you think that this would change? And were is your daddy??? Even he is traveling around leaving is own son alone in this big apartment in this big city. ....so who the hell care about you? You make me sick with you suffering! If you can't stand it...just die! drop dead to the floor! Noone will notice it until your corps begin to stink like hell. Die and go to your stupid sister insteadof writing senseless letters to her! Isn't it what you want?*
Ryou throws the millenium ring away and starts crying and shouting at it.
" Stopp it! I'm not alone..I'm not...my friends will care about me..they will I'm sure!...Daddy has to work it's not his fault...what do YOU know!!!?? How can you be so cruel!? Just leave me alone! This is my life! My body! Go! JUST GO AWAY!"
HIs body is shaking and tears make the pillow wet.
*soo? your friends heh? How childish! phone them! phone just one of them! They just feel sorry for you that's all do you really think they like you?*
"Just shut up!" mumbling.
// Is it true? do they just feel sorry ?....no...that's not true//
The ghost of the millenium ring appears near the bed,'looking down to Ryou.
The young boy feels the cold aura of him and stopps crying.
* We will see....you are just a shame...a stupid little frighten guys who is dependent of others....weak little freak...go on like this and your life will become worthless. You will be alone all your life long...and end as an old man sitting in his room asking silly questions being depressed and almost insane. Then you'll go to bed not waking up anymore without anyone holding your frezzy hands.*
"STOPP IT!!"
screaming in menatl pain. He looks up to the ghost with tears in his eyes, looking puzzeled. "I'm not going to be like this..."
*you are....your suffer...your pain...I would not be surprised seeing you soon taking drugs to feel better.*
*-smirks-*
*you make me sick!*
*- the ghost disappears back in to the ring, pissed of his little hikari-*
Ryou lays on his back and can't sleep until the next morning.
When his watch starts to ring he looks up and goes in to the bathroom preparing for school.
Ryou feels so sick and cold, his eyes red because of crying and no sleep.
He goes to the kitchen eating some bread without any lust,put on his millenium item and taking his school bag.
He leaves the house trying not to fall asleep during the to school. He acn't forget about what his Yami told him last night. he takes his seat and prepares for the first lesson.
Yugi and his friends notice that something is wrong with Ryou and walk over to him.
Yugi looks worried." Hey are you alright Ryou? You look really bad!"
Ryou wasn't even listening and just nodding his head.
"Ryou?hey Ryou! What's wrong with you?" Yugi tries to see in to his eyes.
"No...no everything is fine...I'm fine"
"Are you really? You look awful"Anzu,asks.
"sure...I didn't sleep well....I had some depressions about...family stuff"
Yugi looks sad to him touching his shoulder. "I feel sorry for you."
Anzu nods standing helpless near Yugi."Me too....pour you."
Ryou's eyes starts to shine.He was near to tears again and gets up.
Jounouchi looks surprised at him. " hey dude what's the matter?"
" leave alone....just leave me! Don't feel sorry for me!"
He runs out of the classroom to the washingrooms and smashes the door behind him.
//It's exactly how he said.....they just feel sorry...why...why life has to be so unfair//
*Crying again little brat?..you woke me up stupid kid!*
/piss off/
Ryou's fists were shaking because of anger and despair. He looks in to the mirror in frint of him seeing is red cheeks flooded by tears again.
Anger comes up in him. Anger about his friends,his parents ,his sister,his item and himself. He smashes his fist into the mirror which breaks into peaces.
Ryou tembles even more when he sees the blood on his hand with glass splinters in it.
Then he stands still in the room looking the blood dropping on the floor.
*What the hell are you staring at? Do you have never seen blood before?*
Ryou is not answering his qustion and takes one splinter.
At the same time the teacher came in to the classroom making the presence. When she realizes that Ryou is missing she askes the other students.
Yugi stands up." He is in a bad condition...I think he went to the washingroom to calm down. Do you want me to look for him?"
The teacher nods and continues making the presence.
Yugi goes to the washing rooms.
/Yami I have the feeling that something is wrong with Ryou. Do you think that the ghost of his millenium ring has something to do with it?/
**Could well be..I hope he is fine. Hurry up Aibou!**
Ryou's ring sudenly starts to shine.
*what the hella re you going to do you crap!?*
But the Hikari doesn't answer him and just stares at the broken piece of glas.
//...I can't...any ..longer......to much pain.....to much hate...to much of all this shit//
* Stopp it! I won't let you! I forbid you! ....you know exactly I need a body*
// ...right..that's all what I'm to you....just ...a body//
Ryou takes the ring of and throws it against the wall, smashes the glas piece in his viens and blood splashes out of them.
A few seconds later he drops down to the ground.
